This year has brought me so much happiness. And made me worry about the future more than ever before. The most beautiful moment that I ever experienced happened on July 3rd. The midwife placed a 4.2 kilo baby in my arms and time stopped for me. He was not a stranger, it felt like I knew him in the exact same way I know myself. The first thing I noticed was his feet which are a mix in between mine and André’s. Everything that happened after they put him in my arms is just a blur. It was like it was just him and me in the room and no one else. Every day that goes by I feel guilty that I did not love him as much yesterday as I do today, you know? Because every minute that I spend with him makes me love him even more.

Having this responsibility to another person is so overwhelming. When I think of everything that could happen to him and around him my stomach flips in a way it never done before. The world we live in has so many challenges ahead and having a vulnerable baby makes this feel much more real. This year was the year of war, angry lying men and hate. I truly hope that this new year is a time when people, like a wise person once said, base their decisions on their hopes, not their fears. I pray that we start to respect and treasure the environment, women, diversity and give the earth the balance it needs. I hope that 2017 is the year when we open our eyes to what is happening but also take action and stand up for what is right. What started as a post about the love of my life has turned into a bit of a manifesto for myself and to make the world a better place for him. My mantra for this year is to hope and not to fear. What is keeping you sane and looking forward to 2017?

I love this fabric radio from VIFA. I already have a super old one that I found at a flea market but if that one breaks I get one of these. I love that it’s covered in fabric rather than all plastic.

Vas, Iittala.
After eight days of the flue I am finally feeling like myself again. We have spent the past few days at André parents house lying infront of the fireplace all day and spending our evenings playing boardgames. In other words, it’s been four days of bliss. The next couple of days we are going to spent most of our time fixing things on the house. I hope to finish painting our bedroom! Other than painting I am going take a long walk tomorrow to find something new to decorate our new vas with.